Dear Old Me

Dear Old Me,

My life so far is exciting. I graduated for university 6 months ago. It is your dream to go to college and have bachelor's isn't it?

Well, i am grateful to have strong you. You passed all this way, and make me this.

But there is some thing that i want to snitch to you..

Do you remember, how was we are? In that time, we can through all the day, even in the hardest thing we found, we passed it..

What was the hardest thing for us? Ah,, people think about us, but i never really care about that.

I think that people love us sincerely. I never thought that people become nice to us because money.

But, why nowadays i just thinking about that?

It's kinda different feeling. Is my feeling play with me?

Like. I don't know what i have done, but people just see me petty.. i had no idea, why i am doing this..

Can i just think, that i never know about that? Can i just be happy as i suppose to do?

Can i just ignoring them?

How to be wise, when you are in this situation? You are rarely crying lately.. but i know, there is something hard with you to saying everything..

Because you don't have home,, you don't have place to talk.

I feel you..

Here's the same..

I just wondering all day and night if i do right thing.

People just go away..

I know, what the word makes me down. I remember in one of novels written by Tere-Liye,,

"Jika orang masih marah, bersyukurlah, karena tandanya masih peduli. Tapi jika sudah tak mempedulikanmu, kamu bahkan tidak dianggap ada di dunia ini."

Sometimes i feel so lonely, i feel so hard to thorough this way,,

AH,,, i talk to much today,,

i'll see you later with nicer story..

DOn't be worry. Ok ❤

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