Last night, our institution had a farewell for our boss. She's getting transferred to Jakarta, and we had her successor, a native son of the region. He is charismatic and is like many people in my university. I talked about his gesture. But right now I won't talk about him, but deep inside myself.
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I had a long day. The story began with our direct supervisor asking me and my colleagues to look for a gift for our boss. She talked about many stuff. and we reached an agreement. We went to a boutique and asked the shopkeeper if they had something we needed. Long story short, they had it, and we asked them to wrap it with the ornament. After that, we headed to the hotel where the party will held.
After waiting for minutes, our supervisor asked about the gift, and one of our colleagues gave it to her. Surprisingly, she got angry because it was not what she wanted. She said many things like we should cover it with a special cartoon etc. It shocked us because nobody talked or heard it before. She said we humiliated her in front of our boss and colleagues.
We panicked and felt guilty about what happened, and thankfully somebody helped us. It was not as simple as the problem solved. She was still mad at us, and bad-mouthing our behavior. It was my first event to whip up a gift for my boss. I don't have any experience before and my bad, I don't have a good mind as well. I mean, in term of politics.
I and my friend couldn't calm down because she didn't stop nagging even though the problem had been resolved. We know her character well, so I tried to give a fuck. But not with my co-workers. They felt guilty and couldn't stop reacting to that.
It was a bad experience for me. I just don't understand why somebody has to be very chatty and has different handling. She said a nice thing to me, yet the opposite to my friends. Why didn't said the straight things and clear it for our sake?
For many reasons, I feel that nobody wants me in a business way. Maybe because I'm not good enough to serve my higher, but I really don't care about that.
I want to give a fuck of everything, but it seems impossible since she pointed at me to be a coordinator. I tried my best as long as it was my responsibility. I feel all alone..
I didn't say she is a bad person. She is good. But I don't like the way she is very good at acting. She said would promote me, but I lost my trust little by little.
To perpetuate this irritating moment, I will attach a pic of the gift (example) The story began with this:
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I didn't follow the party until finished. I back home earlier because it was late. I gave a reason to my supervisor and apologized. She said ok reluctantly but who cares? She had another task for me to paid her rent..
I mean, does my salary come from her wallet? 👀
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