Kok aku yang telfon terus?

Yak. sesi curhat lagi hehe

Berhubung ngga tau apa masalahnya gabisa tidur, jadi awalnya buka laptop niat mau latihan mock test english, tapi tiba-tiba aja kepikiran, kenapa yang dari semua teman-teman aku, hampir 100% aku yang selalu chat/telfon mereka dulu.

Ngerti sih, makin dewasa, circle makin sempit, makin banyak kesibukan-kesibukan yang mengharuskan kita menghabiskan waktu sendiri atau dengan orang-orang yang memiliki kesamaan dengan kita.

Rasanya begitu lulus, ilang aja gitu teman-temannya. Walaupun emang sih, sejak sekolah pun aku bukan tipikal orang yang gampang punya teman.

Tetap aja, kalau bisa dibilang sedih, iya sedih sih.

Kadang hal-hal yang gabisa kita cerita ke orangtua, masa-masa sulit kita, bebas kita curahkan ke teman dekat, ga selalu mengharapkan saran atau bantuan apa. Mostly we just need to be listened.

And my overseas friend as well. We have nothing to say anymore. Not really close as before, just send some random reels and talking a bit.

No more long call, no more funny stories.

What i am looking for?

Rumi said, if you love someone just do what you wanna do, no matter she/he has same feeling for you or not. Love is give. But most of people mind love is give and take.

I just don't know what i wanna do. I didn't call or text them despite i want.

Just one thing i do, waste my time to scrolling on social media.

I must be careful with time, because once it flew, it never come back.

It's been long time i didn't attend the class, and didn't do my course as well.

All going boring, but i pay it contanly.

Yeah, i got 4,3 point on my last mock test on reading. Not very good but i just don't know how to study.

Despite i took my money from my stock account.

I must do harder than before. I must be thinking if my parents know about that.

It's pricey enough.. and that's all i have..

Please do your best further, with all your mind and your body.

Sincerely,

Yours

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