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Kemarin, aku menghubungi salah satu dosen bahwa aku tertarik untuk belajar menulis. Nice start, i think because if i want to get scholarship, i must learn how to write. It doesn't have to write in English, but write everything instead. 

Why? because in master degree i heard that student must be write a lot of their task. and it would really struggle if i never write before. 

i said, i know nothing about scientific journaling. 

i have been writen on blog for 10 years, but not really active and i just wrote random things. Indeed, i wrote about my life, my curiousity, my feelings, and so on. 

So, from now on, i want to learn how to write scientic journal. 

My lecturer said, i just need to be looking for some problem around my job, and write it on essay. I think, it is different about essay and scientific work. the difference is about the array. 

From now on, i must be write a lot so that i can get the feel of. 

and i have to manage my time better as well, indeed it must be my part of my life because i do it in my routine. 

i often ask my self, can i through it? because sometimes i feel that so hard. 

i have to invest my time to learn something harder than before, doing something i never do before, and stuck in the some place not my passion. 

the level is high, so that's why i wanna be push my self harder and harder. 

Dear, my self in the future,, did you through all the pain from your struggle?

Your dreams are explore the word, make friends a lot and make proud of your self because your ability. 

You know, when it's going so hard for you, just take rest a while and never give up. 

Love you,,    


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